///updates//2026.09.25

///updates//2026.06.26
It’s been a month and many things have changed. From my ex breaking up with me and losing a somewhat stable living situation, to now, having a potential career that I am happy and satisfied with, a room I’m renting in an amazing location, and finally, finding myself happy because of an otome game. It’s a bit wild that Love and Deepspace came into my life in such a weird time. I’m like two years late on the game, but its helping me stay

///updates//2026.09.25
I kinda fell off and the previous update (above) was sitting in my drafts for like 3 months. Much more shit has happened.
== My Career // status: decent
Work has been going well. I’m tired most of the time, but I see it as a sacrifice that I think is worth it (it’s tied to the next topic). I have been told that it’s going to slow down a bit as the year ends because most other companies in the industry will be wrapping up current projects, so I won’t be getting as many quotes in. But all in all, everything seems to be going swell. I do need to remind my boss that he needs to give me my first performance review.
== My Love Life // status: it’s complicated?
So, when I became optimistic and opened up Hinge to initially just meet people, I wasn’t expecting to come across the person I am seeing (?) right now. To everyone that has known me for quite a while, it is well known that I have 2 speeds: all or nothing, zero to one hundred, standing or sprinting. Chemistry was electric. I felt seen. I thought this was someone who saw who I am and was okay with that. But (because there’s always a but), it seems as time has transpired, that feeling has changed for him. Yes, I am intense and normal people would say that I am a “love bomber” or “crazy”, but this is who I geniunely am and I don’t know anyway else than to be myself. I know he is interested in me but he has his own ghosts to deal with and I know who I am as a person is concerning for him. I just know I will cherish every moment he allows me to love him.
== My Health // status: below average
I definitely have not been taking care of myself because life has become a bit overwhelming. I’m looking to correct this. I’m setting up a schedule soon so that I can dedicate time to taking care of my body and my mental. Lots of things changed for me in the past few months, so I just need to bust out the trusty guild officer hat and manage my schedule and prioritize what I think is important at the moment.

== TLDR
Work is good. Love life could be better. My health is in the fucking trash.
But everything will be fine. I still exist. No one needs to worry. I will be taking a trip soon to see my parents, but I also am planning to just do some wanderlust driving on my own every weekend to get myself back into a decent mental space.

With all my love that may seem too much,
C